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Depression and faith: shared from the heart

depression and faithDepression and faith are in direct opposition to each other. Like many people, I struggle with depression and in the past, there have been times when it has gotten the best of me. We all have experienced family, friends, and even pastors make comments that are well-meaning but ill-received. I’m not writing this as psychological advice or for medical treatment purposes, but as a Christian man simply sharing what the Lord has laid upon my heart. For the last couple of days I have been struggling on how to share what the Lord has laid on my heart because I do understand how hurtful even some of the best intended advice can be when you’re dealing with depression. I’d like to share what I have learned about the real spiritual battle behind depression.

Defining depression and the medical definition

According to the website maintained by the National Institute of Mental Health, depression is defined as:

Depression is a state of low mood and aversion to activity that can affect a person’s thoughts, behavior, feelings and sense of well-being. People with depressed mood can feel sad, anxious, empty, hopeless, helpless, worthless, guilty, irritable, ashamed or restless. They may lose interest in activities that were once pleasurable, experience overeating or loss of appetite, have problems concentrating, remembering details or making decisions, and may contemplate, attempt or commit suicide. Insomnia, excessive sleeping, fatigue, aches, pains, digestive problems or reduced energy may also be present. (NIMH – Depression)

Everyone has, at some time or another, suffered from depression. For many, it may be a temporary state that was the result of a single experience, event, or other trigger. For some, depression is a life-long battle. For nearly a century, there have been a variety of treatments used that includes everything from medications to electroshock therapy. Some are able to talk about their depression with others while some seem to be buried underneath it. As a Christian, the struggle becomes compounded when we hear from other Christians the platitudes of “it will pass” and “you’ll be ok” because at the depths of depression, it doesn’t feel temporary nor does it feel we will ever be the same again. In my own walk, I’ve struggled with depression and have tried to understand the relationship between depression and faith.

Whether it’s caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain or is the result of PTSD, depression and the extent of its effects differ from person to person. Some people have seasonal depression, others have severe chronic depression, and still others will slip into and out of depression on what seems like a cyclic pattern. With all this said, depression is a powerful emotion that can be managed through our faith in the Lord.

Biblical guidance to a better outlook

As regular readers know, 2006 was a major turning point in my life. I quit running and decided to fully accept Jesus as my personal savior and Lord. I also decided to study the Bible as seriously as I was studying the materials for my graduate degree. Like many people, I didn’t know what to expect nor did I realize how applicable the Bible is in today’s world. I was not raised in a Christian family and because of the various public schools, was a bit of a skeptic. What I began to realize was that the Bible is relevant and the advice contained within its scriptures is life-changing. Christianity is not merely a religion but an all-encompassing philosophy. Once I began to understand and accept that as fact, I really began to understand the beauty of the Lord’s advice.

During his earthly ministry, Jesus told his disciples, These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world (John 16:33). About three weeks ago, while facing depression, I came across that verse during my morning reading of the Bible.  On that particular day I was feeling incredibly low, and as I read that verse I began to see it from a different perspective. For those who suffer with depression, it can be a time of great tribulation – and here’s my Lord and Savior telling me that not only does He want me to have peace but be of good cheer. Jesus overcame the battle with depression; when He overcame the world, He overcame everything that the world could throw at Him, including depression.

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What’s is holding you back?

RichardWear7827596853This morning as I was doing my daily reading of the Bible, this verse jumped up at me:  I will praise thee, O LORD, with my whole heart; I will shew forth all thy marvellous works (Psalms 9:1). As I continued to read the rest of the chapter, three questions kept coming to my mind: 1) What am I holding back from the Lord? 2) What is keeping me from praising Him with my whole heart? and 3) Why do I not share the blessings from the Lord with others? I’ve been a Christian since 2006 and have seen the Lord working within my life in some pretty amazing ways, yet in light of all three of the questions, I could not believe how difficult it was to honestly answer them.

What am I holding back from the Lord?

This is a simple and straight-forward question. What am I holding back from the Lord? It is fairly easy to start with the most obvious ones, such as praise, worship, and giving. But we must go deeper than those – what am I holding back? Many of us have a true friend that we share every aspect of our life with; for some this may be a spouse and for others, it may be a childhood friend. Remember the hurt feelings and shock you felt when you found out they held something back from you? Remember how you felt when you found out through someone else about it? If so, you can probably imagine how God feels when He knows we are holding things back from Him. There have been times where I have not had the faith in Him I should have. There are times I have not been as grateful for his mercy, grace, and blessings as I should have. There are times I know I needed to ask His forgiveness for sin, yet I could not bring myself to pray about it.

I think about conversations I have had with other Christians in the past who have told me they were surrendered completely to the Lord’s will. One even told me that he believed that the Lord was calling him into full-time ministry and he was willing to do whatever the Lord wanted him to do – except be a missionary. At the time we laughed it off, but now, with a fresh perspective, he was holding something back from the Lord. He was not completely surrendered. Can the Lord still use him? Absolutely, but he will never receive the joy that comes from serving the Lord as long as he is holding something back. I think of the exchange between Jesus and the rich young ruler as told by Luke: And a certain ruler asked him, saying, Good Master, what shall I do to inherit eternal life? And Jesus said unto him, Why callest thou me good? none is good, save one, that is, God. Thou knowest the commandments, Do not commit adultery, Do not kill, Do not steal, Do not bear false witness, Honour thy father and thy mother. And he said, All these have I kept from my youth up. Now when Jesus heard these things, he said unto him, Yet lackest thou one thing: sell all that thou hast, and distribute unto the poor, and thou shalt have treasure in heaven: and come, follow me (Luke 18:18-22). To paraphrase this passage, Jesus was telling this young man that he had to be willing to surrender everything he owned and all that he was and all his personal power and prestige in order to follow after Jesus. He could not hold anything back.

What is keeping me from praising with my whole heart?

This is another question where it is easy to claim that I’m already doing this. In all honesty, I know that it’s not true. Just as I hold things back from the Lord, I also hold back my praise from Him. David wrote, And they that know thy name will put their trust in thee: for thou, LORD, hast not forsaken them that seek thee (Psalms 9:10). If we are His child, then we have every reason to praise Him with our whole heart. Through the Bible we have the testimony of God’s love for us and the proof of His great salvation offered to us. So if we have every reason to praise Him with our whole heart, why is it so difficult? Each one of us who have accepted Jesus as our Lord and personal Savior can think of at least a half-dozen things He has done: Sing praises to the LORD, which dwelleth in Zion: declare among the people his doings (Psalms 9:11).

As I honestly began to consider this question, the first thing that came to my mind is unconfessed sin. Unconfessed sin will separate us from the blessings and joy that Jesus brings. We feel conviction brought about by the Holy Spirit and and not repent of our sins and praise the Lord, we decide to hide ourselves from Him. The last thing we want to do when running from the Lord is to praise Him. We also are hesitant to praise the Lord with our whole hearts when we know things are not as they should be between us and someone else. We also find it hard to praise the Lord with our entire heart when we know He has set something before us and for whatever reason, we don’t do it. It’s hard to praise the Lord when we are not living fully in His will.

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An answer to an emailed comment

answerThis post is different from most posts that I do. Normally, as I prepare my Sunday school lessons or do my daily Bible study, the Holy Spirit will lay on my heart what I need to share with the regular audience. There are times I wish I could share with you the number of unfinished posts that sit and wait for the day when the Holy Spirit will give me the peace I need to finish and share them with you. This morning is no different from any other morning; I posted some items to the Facebook page that ties to this site and was sorting through the various junk emails that the page generates when I came across an email received through the prayer list contact page. This person simply asked why do I share what I do, what blessings do I get out of it, and if I say I am doing it for God, why does the site accept PayPal donations. I figure that those are fair enough questions and believed the answer was important enough to share with regular readers.

Why do I have a PayPal link?

I want to begin by sharing a scripture about this very thing: But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts: and be ready always to give an answer to every man that asketh you a reason of the hope that is in you with meekness and fear (1 Peter 3:15).  As a Christian, I believe I do owe those that will ask questions an honest answer about my faith. I want to begin with the PayPal question first. This blog is not done for generating revenue. I do not share what I do for building wealth or taking advantage of others. About three years ago, when this site was in its infancy, I had a reader who wanted to financially contribute to the annual hosting plan and was angry that I didn’t have the page set up to accept love offerings. I had never thought of it before as I do this site to be a blessing to others and never put any thought to it. The person said that my ingratitude towards their desire to give was creating a stumbling block in their faith. Knowing that the apostle Paul wrote, Let us not therefore judge one another any more: but judge this rather, that no man put a stumblingblock or an occasion to fall in his brother’s way (Romans 14:13), and after much prayer, I came to the decision to add the ability to accept donations on this site (by that point, the person who had made it an issue no longer followed this site). I do not solicit donations nor is any financial contribution expected from those who regularly read this blog.

I do not need donations to keep this site going and will gladly, as I have each year, continue to pay for the hosting plan out of my pocket. However, if the Lord does lead you in the direction of helping with the cost of hosting this site, I will honor your donation’s intent. This site will never charge a membership fee nor will it ever have a “subscriber only” section. The scriptures teach: But not as the offence, so also is the free gift. For if through the offence of one many be dead, much more the grace of God, and the gift by grace, which is by one man, Jesus Christ, hath abounded unto many. And not as it was by one that sinned, so is the gift: for the judgment was by one to condemnation, but the free gift is of many offences unto justification. Therefore as by the offence of one judgment came upon all men to condemnation; even so by the righteousness of one the free gift came upon all men unto justification of life (Romans 5:15-18) and since that very grace is what brings salvation to humanity, I do feel that this blog, a public forum, should also remain free.

Why I share what I do

This question is a little more difficult to answer because I am not sure exactly what the person asking the question meant. I will say this – the reason that I blog about the topics I do is because 1) I feel that I have been led to that particular topic by the Holy Spirit, 2) basic discipleship and sharing what I have learned about my faith in the Lord are meant to be shared [Thou therefore, my son, be strong in the grace that is in Christ Jesus. And the things that thou hast heard of me among many witnesses, the same commit thou to faithful men, who shall be able to teach others also (2 Timothy 2:1-2)], and 3) if I can help one person to grow in their relationship with the Lord, then this work that Christ has called me to do has been successful. I wasn’t raised in a Christian home and in late September of 1988, I had an emotional experience where I thought I had been led to the Lord. The problem was that all I gained was head knowledge but my heart remained unchanged. From 1988 to 2006, I lived a deceived life. I was deceived in believing I was saved and was content in claiming Jesus Christ as my Savior while still pursuing the pleasures of sin. I realize now that it was not until 2006 that I truly accepted the Lord Jesus Christ as my personal Savior; before (and in earlier blog entries) I would hold on to the deception that I had been saved in 1988 and simply rededicated my life to Christ.

And that is the simple purpose of what I share here. A lot of time has passed since those college days and the blinding deceit that Satan was able to hold me under. In fact, even asking for the Lord’s forgiveness and surrendering my life completely to Him, I still held onto the belief that I was saved in 1988 and simply rededicated my life to Him in 2006. After promising the Lord Jesus that I would study His word as seriously as I was my academic pursuits, a few verses called out to me and changed my relationship with my Lord and Savior forever: Seek ye the LORD while he may be found, call ye upon him while he is near (Isaiah 55:6), One thing have I desired of the LORD, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the LORD, and to enquire in his temple (Psalms 27:4), and  The young lions do lack, and suffer hunger: but they that seek the LORD shall not want any good thing (Psalms 34:10). From that moment forward, the Lord has blessed me tremendously.

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